Laptop on counter, working where she stood. Afraid of drowning in nothingness and fear. Writing between the margins of motherhood, is to breathe to a heartbeat and bleed a career. Folding words from laundry or wiping words off the floor, earning less money than stress. One hand stroking a cheek, another a keyboard, finding moments of dignity in the mess. While he leaves unencumbered, knowing his path, she searches for words—under pillows, in drawers— that fill her with purpose but don’t do the math. And yet, how do you charge for changing the world? She loves them all, she says. Not one favorite noun to nourish sentences; raise something profound.
Kara Douglass Thom is a freelance writer and author of ten books, including eight books for children. Her poetry has appeared in Weaving the Terrain: 100-Word Southwestern Poems, Sport Literate and several online journals, including Mothers Always Write. She is the 2018 recipient of the Gaia Fenna Memorial Fellowship at Tofte Lake Center for Artists. She resides in Chaska, Minnesota with her husband and four children.